To everyone that has stopped by I thank you for all the kind words. With Hook being on the road so much we really don't have a lot of friends, except on here, "The Stream."
The little time he is home we choose to spend together. He asks about all of you during the week when he's traveling, what everyone is up to and how everyone is doing. When he gets home, he pops in and catches up on everyone's posts. Being here has made it possible for us to have friends that we both enjoy.
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We spent Saturday with Hook's family. The kids have all gotten together to get his mom's house in order. Things have been slowly falling to pieces around her. She's in her 70's has had a stroke...she is a very stubborn, beautiful lady who raised 8 children. She is having great anxiety with everyone in her house, touching and moving her things. I was honored when she chose me to get away, a trip to Lowe's to pick out cabinets, fixtures, paint. She asked my opinion several times and when they got everything back to the house, it was perfect.
She also had other motives...as mom's always do. On the way home she came out with...
"What's going on with Brian's lung?"
I was taken back, I wasn't sure if Hook had even told her or how much information he had given her. She has been so stressed with the remodeling I didn't know if he would have told her or not.
"What did HE tell you about his lung?" was my reply.
It's not my place to discuss it. I didn't know if she caught wind of it from someone else or if she was just searching.
She respected my avoidance.
She does know there was something wrong. I told her that we would know more this week if there was anything to be worried about or not.
Such a strong lady, I admire her. She lost a daughter to breast cancer, her daughter was only 28 if i recall right. She lost her husband to lung cancer about 14 years ago...I know what she's thinking.
I just couldn't be comforting or optimistic, I avoided.
That's what I do.
Hook is still working, he's on his way to Seattle. I wish he would stay closer to home. His back has been bothering him, so much pain it takes his breath away. The roads are terrible out west.
I worry.
Results from the CT scan should be in Monday or Tuesday.
Monday
Still kinda in a funk. I work tonight. I didn't sleep all that well. It will be a long night. No word from the Dr. today.
I've been thinking alot about Brian's mom. Hook and I have been together over 7 years, we aren't married. It's something we've talked about but, I don't know, with 3 failed marriages between us the odds seem bad.
His mom has a hard time with this. With family get-togethers she stumbles on her words as she introduces me. This is Brian's...girl..partne....this is Joy. Very uncomfortable.
Again, just rambling.
I hate Monday's.
